Weak @ Understanding

Maybe it's the hunger for fitting in, changing the way we act/think in order to gain acceptance. I am in no means ALL grown up, but I've seen things: I've been around just long enough to witness peoples hunger for always wanting something more. As a Christ follower I sometimes find it difficult to walk the walk. There are going to be challenges, God didn't make all of this out to be some walk in the park. If He did, I don't think anyone would have followed - we all long for knowing more - and if it were all just simply handed to us...guaranteed we would just stand there and hold it. We would never get hit with more questions, because in our hands would be the only thing we ever needed. For me, I hate simple. This entire thing, God's unique design for my life, is like the worlds largest puzzle. Come on, you've all been there. Sitting at the table for so long, and when you finally find a piece that fits you pump your fist and raise your voice just loud enough for everyone sitting at the table to hear your excitement. Ah! That's how it is with me - I long for more: more relationship, deeper conversation, more understanding...more puzzle pieces!
One thing I desire is understanding. God is at the core of every relationship I share with people. It's taken me a while to put certain pieces together, but after time, it's all starting to fit. I pray that when it comes to my relationships with others that if for some reason God has other plans and wants me to take a different direction that I am strong enough to handle it. In this moment, right now, I feel weak. I always tell myself to live in the moment, and to take pride in what I have and who I share it with. But sometimes I can't help but find myself wondering what could/will/should happen with what's going on around me.

I'm sure there will be more to this post later down the road - but for now - thanks for reading. I think we all struggle with our own different desires. It could be something very simple, or even more complex. God has incredible intentions for all of us. He's got the destination in mind, it's up to us to figure out the path - - \Sure, He's there for guidance, but don't be afraid to commit. I've got bruises...but God has me on the best roller coaster of all time.

-Praying for You -